like a snatch from the beginning

it was wonderful waking up this morning. apart from the stiffness in my neck and later discovering that my eyes were all puffed out like i was crying the night before(it seemed fairly odd since i closed my eyes with swell thoughts on my head), the morning was cool and i could hear the splatter of nice rain drops on my window(i ran profusely to check if it rained on my computer since it was unstrategically placed right below the window by my mother). there's nothing like waking into a soft drizzle in manila.

i had noodles for brunch and have forgotten to eat again until 4 in the afternoon where i snacked on slices of banana cake and apple juice on our way to the mall. OUR way since i was indeed with somebody. arvin had insisted to accompany me to settle a rather unsettling overdue bill from one of those sleazy ISPs which are bound to take a hefty sum from you for basically nothing. i swear im telling the truth. he was rather bored and penniless are the reasons if you ask me. you wouldn't be seeing the two of us joking around the street if he had even 20 pesos in his pocket(all right, fine i guess i am exaggerating a little).

anyway, what we did was, we had a nice time walking around for a few hours but had an awful time WALKING. we had both agreed that our feet were sore even if we were both wearing only flip flops. i could have sworn there was something different from the way we regarded each other from the time we last went out for a stroll. it was like something from all the famliarities have been removed and was placed by the slightest skip of a beat or a fraction of a breath held. you wouldn't even notice it from a third person's point of view. like a snatch from the beginning of all things, i experienced an excitement and coyness i did not know i could still fathom for him. i guess i was desperate for anything that would indicate a remaining interest he still holds dear for me.

all im saying is we had it going there for a while. but not without those sharp pangs of pain embedded with my casual observance of things. i could not get use to the fact that-- oh i dont know. i guess he will forever hurt me with petty things which he never really intended for as long as im me. *yawn*